The illusions are screwing our mind...

.unintended.

2008-09-21T22:56:00.004+08:00

like an angel in disguise..
flying by without wings..
first meet was a surprise..
thought we'd just be flings..

waiting with a book outisde dblo..
flash that charming smile when they said hello..
that night everything was a smooth flow..
drop by 7-11 for bacardi n his merlot..

opened my eyes n its 7.20
breakfast at mac wif a cuppa tea..
hailed for me a taxi..
kiss goodbye and got his text at 8.50..
that was the start of our little story..

started to throw my temper,
but still ur precious gem..
never released ur anger,
instead, sang me lullabies at 3am...

u wanted the same love&affection..
but i had no time to give u my attention
boredom made u urge for past addiction..
left me alone, waiting for ur conviction..

our relationship was like a quickie..
couldnt get enuff of ur love..
said u'll be back in a jiffy..
now i just gotta pray to God up above..

.this can't b right.

2008-08-20T20:58:00.006+08:00

Cos when im looking in my baby's eyes
I can't bare to tell him more lies
I gotta be stronger now then i was before
But when u hold me boy its so real
I'm feeling things 4 u i can't feel
I know i shouldn't stay but boy i just can't leave...

This can't b right
But it doesn't feel so wrong
But when i'm all alone,
I'm thinking of you but i'm with him...
This can't be right that its you thats on my mind
But he's still in my life
But your the one thats stands by my side...

I wanna let go but there's something that makes me hold on
but this just can't go on,
and we're better off with nobody knows....
i never thought we would have lasted so long
so perfect but its so wrong
cos i got some body waiting at home...

but when you hold me boy its so real
im feeling things for you i can't feel
i know i shudn't stay but boy i just can't leave....

.breakdown.

2008-07-27T23:04:00.002+08:00

But you cant stop nothing
if you got no control
of the thoughts in your mind
that you kept in, you know,
you dont know nothing
but you dont need to know,
the wisdoms in the trees
not the glass windows...

You cant stop wishing
If you dont let go..
But things that you find
and you lose, and you know,
you keep on rolling
put the moment on hold
the frames too bright
so put the blinds down low...

.beautiful disaster.

2008-06-11T23:46:00.005+08:00

was it a beautiful disaster?

or an accidental reminder..

in cards i'm the winner

in hearts ur the player..

don't look back in anger

one day a friend, next a stranger...

.darling.

2008-06-08T01:02:00.003+08:00

can i go back to january
where it was just u and me..
it might sound crazy
but i'd take it all seriously..

sub zero quality
but much sense of security..
in a world of vanity,
ur my CK eternity..

stuck in a 3-dimension
nothing can be certain..
enough of complication
still d same situation...

is this called sharing?
getting quarter of the loving
sweet bickers & discreet meeting
macs a barrier darling...

here comes midnight savior
laugh whenever u appear..
can u make me a lil happier?
i want that song now, not next year! =p

.me.

2008-05-31T03:08:00.001+08:00

touch me
take me to that other place..
teach me
i know i'm not a hopeless case..

.new found glory.

2008-05-28T03:05:00.003+08:00

new found glory..
laughter fills d air
u seem to be happy
i think its unfair..

loosening the mounted stress
here comes ur motivation..
can't b feeling that warm caress
cos there it is.. ur dedication..

still a love-wreck
now gone and forlorn..
glue that obvious crack
high time to reborn..

gotta be smiling
gotta try to sacrifice..
wish for ur everlasting
stop all the cries..

.blessings.

2008-05-21T02:44:00.003+08:00

its been half a year
so who's your new 'friend'...
u must have gotten over
i still scribble life with a pen...

if i see u with her
walking hand in hand...
i'll turn away with a tear
and try to pretend...

maybe down the long road,
ridding off that heavy load
i'll give u my blessings,
like few lovely offsprings...

.love, defined.

2008-05-19T03:50:00.005+08:00

Love is a temporary madness.
It erupts like an earthquake and then subsides.
And when it subsides you have to make a decision.
You have to work out whether your roots have become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part.
Because this is what love is.
Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the promulgation of promises of eternal passion.
That is just being "in love" which any of us can convince ourselves we are.
Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away, and this is both an art and a fortunate accident.
Your parents had it, they had roots that grew towards each other underground, and when all the pretty blossom had fallen from their branches they found that they were one tree and not two.

.dear u.

2008-05-17T03:57:00.011+08:00

dear you
gave me the world when we're together
leaving me torn into pieces thereafter..
from a beautiful stranger, now's a broken feather
guess it had to be my walk to remember
good things are shortlived, nothing lasts forever..
if one day i opened a new chapter,
d love u gave can never be replaced by another...

dear you
in a mess having no clue
come and go but hardly through..
every lil thing was an impromptu
certain points got me feeling blue
want the truth but my lies just grew
u shouldn't be angry, ur not my boo!
u'll neve even be something new..

dear you
keeping me on track with quotes of the day
for a short period u were my savior at bay
impulsive acts made me drift away..
sorry, ur an excellent mate i must say
i'll try to make it stay that way
cos things seem to be turning grey..

.rider.

2008-05-17T02:45:00.007+08:00

mister vanvan rider
stepping on a higher gear
u'd look great on a scrambler
5x hotter than jamie oliver
but with me behind, it gon look ever better! :p
do u want a fullface for congratulation?
i wanna b d 1st! no other option!
let's go shopping for some decal decoration
then again, it'll never happen..

2008-04-29T03:47:00.002+08:00

Staring through a window standing outside
they're just too happy to care tonight
I want to be like them
But I'll mess it up again
And I know that it's a wonderful world
But I can't feel it right now
Well I thought that I was doing well
But I just want to cry now....

.truth.

2008-04-28T22:13:00.004+08:00

confident in handling the truth well
yet it led to an internal bruise
no longer gonna hear the bell
mend the heart with a cruise

didn't think of publishing on papers
just come and go without any status
now it's definately gonna be just strangers
'hi and bye' are the leftovers..

how did u land up with sucha mess
couldn't things b easier, just like the rest?..
caught unsheltered in the perfect storm
without anyone keeping u warm..

.sorry.

2008-04-21T01:46:00.005+08:00

didn't wanna be sober
falling aslp on ur shoulder
want those hugs and kisses so tender
how sweet to bring me water,
not realising how pissed u actually were..
was supposed to be ur listening ear
not a drunken stupur!

so ur shuttin out all my explanation
caught up in ur own accusation
not convinced by my reason
hey, im not a perfect person
just need a chance to learn..
sorry...second time's nvr gonna happen
cos i'd willingly share ur burden...

.teardrops.

2008-04-14T18:13:00.002+08:00

d recent words shocked me
never knew u still do love me
just couldn't read ur mind
even ur actions so hard to define

want u around on the strike of my birthday
instead let my last tearsrops be today..
filled my life with colours, now turned grey
the truth left me hanging again, is that okay?

never wanted it to die..
never expected us to give it another try..
never intended to say goodbye..
now just sit and watch the days go by..

.fix u.

2008-04-09T01:56:00.001+08:00

When you try your best, but you don't succeed
When you get what you want, but not what you need
When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse..

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

will u try to fix me..

.lost.

2008-03-31T14:41:00.004+08:00

2 nights they spent d phone kept ringing
all she could do was turn away and keep feigning
a silent sob with a broken heart aching
yearns for a hug but ends up asking..

a day later she sees him on stage
playing like a rockstar on some coverpage
suddenly more than words was strummed in d middle
that familiar tune at every gig made her whole heart twirl
but den again, was this time round for another girl?

leaving d gig he gave a hug
d hug so tender it made her night turn bitter
heads to hardrock for a drink and a breather
end up losts in thoughts, tears smudging her eyeliner
how long's this pain gon last.. a month, a year?

thou a new man had once given her attention
it just aint that same as his affection
trys to find for d perfect solution
but she's always taken over by strong emotion
desperate for love and consolation
not by anyone, but from baby lemon..

.more than words.

2008-03-27T01:15:00.003+08:00

on another attempt of forgetting,
yet one call of 'going to slp' made tears puddling
it wasn't d words, but the person i was calling
however complicating its still u i'm truely missing

the soccer match brought back so much
like d guy u kicked when he gave me a little nudge
made my heart go eeeek! with that face so angry
by ur side i felt so much sense of security
sadly it's just another chapter of History..

.come and go.

2008-03-26T03:03:00.006+08:00

some say "easy come easy go
little high little low"
but ur distinctive scent still lingers on d pillow
that almost perfect warmth like i'm lonely no more
why cant u be my hero...
instead of just goodbye and hello..
d other's playing no-show...

.Now.

2008-03-21T18:13:00.004+08:00

a famliar place
a familiar face
sitting by the corner
adjacent to the other
something's amiss, now where's ur savior?

same routine, time for breakfast collection
(hang on!) polish the glasses dont infuriate the woman
in history it was a rush to cold kitchen
at present no urgency, it's vacant at staff 'entran'
now don't wait up, head home after eleven

the commoner's flying, thereafter leaving
ur left here with famliar faces, excluding a 'kring kring'
happy or sad? now thats rather confusing..

.morning call.

2008-03-20T04:18:00.005+08:00

sleepness nights u start to ponder
what is it ur really after
lying on bed in absolute daze
pursuing on the futile chase

morning comes, the sun is rising
check ur phone for a 'gd morning'
back to slp with a heart sighing.
again awaken, ur phone's beeping
lethargically hopeful but its just ur alarm ringing

Live the Dream

2008-02-11T04:24:00.000+08:00

striving hard; learning smart
gaining fame, all know's ur name
sense of triumph; moment of delight
keeping it real, never gonna fail

everyone's best bud when they need one
yet 'bestties' can't be found when u need some
a cheeky, happy go lucky person u portrayed
but deep down there's so much left unsaid
so u drown ur troubles with booze instead

live the dream that's awaiting
don't let setbacks keep u from achieving
if u ever feel like ur all alone,
just go to the place which feels closest to home
:)

2007-10-03T00:29:00.000+08:00

disavowing distance
grows to nite long conversations
havin d best ever patience
making efforts wif words n actions

slowly jealousy starts to portray
minors had him fill up d ashtray
then sun shines in d sky once so grey,
when 'someday' turns to be 'today'

could part be outta obligation?
could part be outta impulsion?
improper handlin mite get it burnt
so have tiny hopes,
for bigger ones come greater disappointments.

but now it's all turnin out fine
going one step at a time
from shopping sprees to wine and dine,
sentosa stayover next up in line..
a dozen kids after he buys a dime?
then u'll see me whine and grind=p

. From Chair Chair .

2007-09-13T16:35:00.000+08:00

(from my sis, and her poetry of 'wisdom' ha!)

Snow White, my lil dreamy sister
ya fantasy ending too much quicker
u dumped ya Mr. Nerdy Despo
a cheapo, xchanged fo Mr.Romeo..

get dressed, let's go hit the clubs
we'll go get riding with guys in tubs..!
boys are stinkin suckin 'siakaps'
forgive me, but i'm the mastress of breakups...

let them give trust when we lust
let them hope when we dope
let them fantasise n thereafter
we shall provide our accidental Disaster!!

at times,we dun really have a choice,
they deserve bein played around like toys..
they are but a million portrayal
so get ready to face them our betrayal..

'chairchair'

. Forsake .

2007-08-25T19:50:00.000+08:00

couldnt understand why
did my best and nvr failed to try
yet time and again u made me reminisce and cry

i said we shud let go and a take a break
u said u cudn't do without me, that u made a serious mistake
wasn't sure myself cos i know we both were trying hard to fake
but now it's positive that our love we have to forsake
soo darn exhausted, prolly need a slap to kip me awake..

half a year has never been a regret
all e times we shared i'll never forget
guess we'll never get to sing a duet?=)
thou ur the one that left the deepest impact
i still do miss ya, and that's a fact!

. Troubles .

2007-08-23T02:49:00.000+08:00

it all started so fine and went so smooth
all fights easily solved this love was bullet proof
spinning every nite and turning in with a big smile
kissing and hugging, endless lovin all the while

suddenly it came to a slow halt
honeymoon period's over, now comes all the nasty fault
troubles overloading, it never seemed to stop
one doubt cleared, but another will just pop
how long can i stand, any longer and i mite drop
but this is reality, u have to play to stay on top

one fact i can't deny is i soo miss d old u
d one who kept me strong and never feeling blue
sadly it changed so fast, we're no longer a sticky glue
trying hard to make things work but something's just amiss
could it be we lost touch of that special kiss?

now all we can do is have a lil consistency
tighten the gap that's portraying so obviously
what happened to all ur words so cheesy?
probably we need a break, somewhere out in d deep blue sea..

. Valentine!! .

2007-02-14T01:57:00.001+08:00

how should i start, where should i begin?
getting our presents while cracking our brain
or fixing e bike, hot weather making my head pain.
let's just skip and go to d part that almost made me faint!

1st u said u had to meet a fren
then u said it was some gangsta meeting u had to attend
made me think "what a way to spend our day man!"
d walk in e garden was peaceful and serene
as we walked deeper, it grew spookier with d chilly wind..
terrified to see an old woman squatting on d grass
lighting up joss sticks as we walked pass
then u suggested we go over
when i turned, d woman was there no longer!!
dragging me to go take a peek
what i saw made my knees go weak

a mat was laid with 2plates of spaghetti
candles all alround, seemed like those romantic love story
d 'joss stick' i claimed was actually a bottle of ice-lemon tea!

after eating we laid on the mat
kept pinching ur tummy which u alws said was fat
we gazed at the stars & made figures outta clouds
at that point of time u seemed to clear all my doubts.
our candlelit dinner ended so fast
den u rode to 7-11 to buy my favourite ice-cream mars
baby with u i'll never have time to reminisce bout d past
you give me something that makes me think we can last..

never have i experienced this my whole 18years
what he did really moved me to tears
felt as though i was in another world
that shy stare and smile still makes my heart twirl
all these were once just my fantasization
but today it all came true, no longer fiction
d night before i made a silly accusation
do u accept my apology, filled with sincerity & passion?

. 4 u bitches! .

2007-01-21T21:38:00.000+08:00

*Friends are Forever
Boys are Whatever?!*

Cinder! she's good in spreading world peace ,
yet innocently got hooked by Fahmy's kiss .
Belle's tryin hard to please her beast
cooking for him meals, giving him a big feast..
Aurora is known as Sleeping Beauty
decades of sleeping has made her turn so so smelly!
Ariel's the fish who loves to dance
from r&b to hiphop, soon gonna be trance..!

These 4 bitches alws appear so happy
but i know deep inside some are hurting badly
one hopes for a savior who'd keep her company
d other wants to move on, yet there's just too many memory..

without those cheeky 4
lessons in school would have been sucha bore
entertaining each other with gossip and joke
bitching bout the other til one can get choke!
guys, dudes, hunks were our top priority
updating ourselves daily in that little blue diary
how unforgettable to be once known as 'khanatalookady'!!

time flies so fast and now we're turning 18
izza's legal soon, but pls dont let a man go inbetween!
now til forever i'll remember u princesses
wish u find ur prince, and attain everlasting happiness!!

:: hahaha! ::

2007-01-20T23:51:00.000+08:00

one to another now it's my fren ur after
i do remember clearly u said u'd love to screw her
she's a bimbo and ur a despo
sucha sweet pair of 'innocent' cheapo.

dont get me wrong cos i'm not jealous,
it's just her attitude that makes me wanna puke,
u guys wanna lie yet can b so careless,
walls have eyes, turn around and take a look!

so wat ya gonna do mister self-proclaimed player
get her hole and hunt for another?
if u need my help in finding a whore
gimme a ring, i'll give u numbers for more.

it's a pity u tried so hard to please me
wannabe playa? u'll alws be nerdy
as for me, i'm living my life happily.
don't need u to cause destruction
u alws pretend to come up with some complication
what's those msges for today? u want some admiration?
go to 98.7 and make a dedication..

. Get Lost .

2007-01-18T23:46:00.000+08:00

enough of those messages
enough of those threats
ur becoming so ruthless
ur becoming like those jerky brats.
i don't need ur calls, neither ur sympathy
pls remember i chose to leave u, not u leave me!
when someone's around u tend to neglect
when we reconciliate, u'll never sit and reflect.
now we're through, we're over and done
now u can roam, have all ur filthy fun.
dont call me a whore when ur a fucking male cunt.
dont bicker with me when all ur statements are blunt.
don't always say i like to 'jual mahal'
cos the truth is that ur just a 'jantan sundal'

. You & Me .

2007-01-17T16:13:00.000+08:00

The time i went to watch a movie
my mind was all just "baby come and save me'
he gave me a nudge, with his usual sad stare
but now i no longer find the feeling that was once there
each smile he gave, each touch of his
made me justify it was u that i truely miss..

on that day itself we headed to esplanade
walked past streets and shadows slowly began to fade..
had a chat by the singapore river,
kept tinking to myself, are u just another player?
i cud tell u were shy, and so was i..
all i did was to gaze at the sky scrapers up high..
the wind was chilly
i pictured u hugging me tightly
giving me a warm embrace with ur kisses so tenderly..
none of it happened that night
from this can i assume that doralin was right?
it's so pleasant for a sweet talker not to behave intimately
so unlike those typical dudes above twenty!

on the way back, again the wind was chilly
i held on tight as u sped across the P.I.E
now i pictured us driving to J.B.
long long highway, just you and me...
but it all came to a halt when i saw "Bedok Reservoir"
this meant that i couldn't imagine some more!
now my mind is still contemplating if its all for real
i wanna be positive, but i guess perhaps it's gonna fail?

:: So True!!! ::

2007-01-17T12:07:00.000+08:00

About Me:
You are emotional and intense.
When involved in a relationship,
you throw ur entire being into it.
Nothing stops you; there are no holds barred.
You are all-consuming and crave for someone who is equally passionate and intense.
You believe in total freedon.
You are willing to try anything and everything.
Your supply of energy is in exhaustible.
You want to be pampered and know how to pamper your mate.
You also enjoy mothering your mate.
You often have the greatest love affairs all by yourself, in your head.
You are very imaginative.

My Birthdate(16):
U alws follow the good and the right instead of following ur heart.
In other words, ur a perfectionist.
U care for every word people say aobut u.
U often seem isolated,
while u are, by nature, curious & a dreamer who is ready to get over the edge to make ur dreams come true.
Your love,
u often fall in love with a person who is much different from u, in age and other aspects.
Ur relationship grows on frenship,
Love at 1st sight is not ur style.

:: It's All Over ::

2007-01-16T12:51:00.000+08:00

mister happy go lucky
always taking things way to easy..
all that big/little words u've promised..
when has that ever been accomplished?

people alws thought we were inseparable;
thought no matter what happens we can make it possible
but the quantity of ur equivocations are just incalculable..
now u should be happy that i pushed the 'stop' button
pls dont call, reconcilliating will only make the same shit happen..

:: Moved On ::

2007-01-16T12:40:00.000+08:00

start of our relationship was hardly polished
later part was fully sprinkled with garnish
2years together was indeed to be cherished
but bcos of ur 'tales', u made it perish.

time and over all i felt was so sorry
took u back after ur endless apology
further assuring me not to ever worry
hey, dont ever think u won all the glory!

for the past few weeks my feelings were already fading
my heart was totally shagged
no room for any more loving
absolutely didn't want to be tagged.

then came along this beautiful stranger
making every single day congested with zest&laughter
filling up my life with almost complete love and tender
made me move on, forgetting all bout that fucker.

the answer to ur question u inquired earlier?
i do wanna go to the place that would only make me happier
one problem is, are we really in this together?
pardon me, i can be quite a big dreamer!

:: Country Pumpkin ::

2007-01-15T23:29:00.000+08:00

this is bout a guy who's a complete sweet talker
ever since the first chat, he had words coated with sugar.
for the start i found it normal & didn't really bother
but now it seems i'm getting attracted to that bomber!

time at the gig was so short yet memorable
first smile u gave me, oh so unforgettable!
that reek of liquor made me wanna move closer to ur lip
when u kissed, it felt like my heart did a back-flip!

been a long time since i felt this way
now my soul longs for u to stay
with u around i'll never go astray
what bout u? this, we'll save it for another day.

u take weezie for a ride round the country yard
i'll be home cooking, (no pork no lard).
jokes of imma uptown girl, u d country boy
what i wonder is, are u gon treat me as ur toy?
cant be so naive
a man's word is always set out to decieve!

you said u can be my hero baby?
so which would ours be eventually,
my 'Walk To Remember" or your "Never Ending Story"....?

. Those Words .

2006-04-04T18:38:00.000+08:00

"bruised and battered by those words
dazed and shattered now it hurts"

I watched u go soundly to sleep
deep down i knew ur the man i wanted to keep
wondrous moments with u i had
countless memories of us we've shared
our second year was just a month away
even had plans what to give u on that day
but sad to say, u went astray
u mentioned in the poem i alws wanted time out
there, the reason for my continuous doubt!

Just as my love was fallin deeper
all those words made me drown right into the water
how i felt? u'll never understand
all i know is our game of love just gotta end
only pain and outrage was left in the conclusion
all because of your uncontrolled limitation
"i'll swear to change; there's only u in my heart"
should i say this is another piece of ur junk remark?
which of ur words am i supposed to consider
cos to me, ur one big bad liar!

Now u wanna show me ur love and affection
wanna give me big surprises and attention
why must u do this after we're over?
why couldn't u just start a lil earlier?
is regret the only excuse u can give?
tell me something new, instead of causing me more grief!

. Long Time .

2006-03-06T20:19:00.000+08:00

I love you more than words can say
the feeling just gets deeper day by day.
the start of us was rocky with sadness
d new us now is so loving, filled with happiness

If i could make a wish of Love
i'd wish will last til we reach d heavens above
look at me with that heartmelting stare
promise u'll shower me with tender, love & care...

22nd Sept 2005

. Valentines .

2006-02-13T18:51:00.000+08:00

Valentine's here again like every year
this time round i wont write u any long letter
in this short poem i'll roughly summarize,
tryta keep it sweet without too many lies..=)

No doubt ur unromantic and kinda boring
but times with u are alws so enjoying
behave like a clown to keep me entertain
tickles me so roughly,wanting me to go insane
thou our love's not so divine,
but u make me feel like i'm on cloud nine..!

I watched u put on all the kilo
and now ur looking just like a hippo
alws making fun of your extra tyres
still u should that ur my dearest..!!

. Regret .

2006-02-06T21:55:00.000+08:00

oh God pls get me outta this mess
to u i pray, to u i confess
Too many sins i've already committed
this is a big one, i'm so scared i'd get convicted
at first it was just child's play
eventually it turned to be my greatest dismay
Never once did i think bout the consequences
now i'm helplessly lying with a guilty conscience
Things are really gettin out of control
dont wanna waste my life locked up in a dark hole!!
am i really too late for regret?
pray things turn fine, go to slp and dont fret..

. My Boyfriend .

2006-02-05T22:49:00.000+08:00

it's time i write something good about you,
but if i do that, only part of it would be true...=)

i've a boyfriend who's kinda gay
has hair texture that looks like hay
he may be a pain and a total irritant
but without him around life's just so unpleasant
telling me jokes which none i find funny
making my day with that foolish smiley
just one wrong word and he'll activate my anger alarm
endless pacifying and i'll b back in his arm

where else can i find another man so understanding
keeps me warm whenever we're sleeping
brings me water in the wee hours of morning
be my punching bag each time i'm fuming
always give in whenever we're quarrelling
never ever touched me though i seem to be abusing

are all these the truth or am i just faking?
i dont know myself, i'm still in d midst of exploring....

. Dont Need U .

2006-02-05T22:20:00.000+08:00

Wanted u as my short term companion,
accompany me thru this period of boredom
Tot u'd b the one i'd leave him for
but gradually found u kinda like a sore
givin me craps and all those sweet nothings
i'm not d type who'd fall for these hummings
Now i dont need u any longer
cos things between us have just got better
Maybe after a few months later
i'll go astray and find another part timer

. Don't Want You Back .

2006-01-19T23:14:00.001+08:00

been through so much deceiving,
let's get over with it
cos i dont want all that fake loving
dont need that kinda shit..
can't u see we're sinking so much deeper,
or why dont u just open ur fcukin eyes bigger..
think u can get away so easy,
too bad u messed with the wrong baby..
begging me pls as though i give a hack
fcuk u fat jerk, i dont want u back..!

. Confusion .

2006-01-16T23:34:00.000+08:00

Just to meet u i had to tell so many lies,
feeling so insecure, i see so many fierce eyes.
So many thoughts flashing through my head,
should i continue or should i back off instead?
Reached the point where i was lost for solution,
tried so hard but couldn't come up with any conclusion.
So many questions i've yet to answer,
too many lies, i don't know why i even bother.
Didn't know d tattoos could tell so much about u,
even want ur son to be named fuck yew..!
Skin tear, scarification, all these weird modification,
will soon turn out to be ur greatest creation.
Are we gonna end up just like one of my illusion,
somebody pls help me, i'm in a state of confusion....

. Wanna Progress? .

2006-01-15T18:28:00.000+08:00

Met this guy somewhere out there,
before i knew it, sparks were flying everywhere.
24 with attitude was what i like,
one sad thing is he hasnt got a bike..
First time i saw him was a little shocked,
second time was melted by d way he talked..
Kisses so tender; face kinda gorgeous,
wanna progress but gotta be very cautious..
One fine night he told me he'll wait,
oh baby come on, it's obviously too fake..
The only thing i could say was,
just let nature take its course?

Each guy i fling with is always sweeter than d other,
but at d end of d day, i'll still stick to my lover...

. Isit For Real .

2006-01-13T22:55:00.000+08:00

Pretender - it's one u never fail to be.
Possesive - is this really in me?
Pathetic - why can't u just be decisive.
Patience - it's something i'll never achieve.

Both of us are world's apart,
always claim i'm buried deep down in ur heart.
is it for real or is it still infatuation,
cos it's been so long and i just dont feel d passion.
'i'm a total changed man' u always mention,
but can't u tell what i want is ur attention?